Does it Matter How Much?

Most of you know I have lost over 120 pounds. That is a lot of weight. I always rolled my eyes at people who wanted to lose those last five pounds and grab their belly skin. You know those people? I was insulted when people said that to me. In my head I was thinking, "Oh shut up. What do you have to complain about?" Most of you I am sure know exactly what I am talking about. During this time of weight loss and self discovery I have come to realize that those last five pounds are really hard to lose. I never knew that before. Those last pounds are a tenacious bunch. My point now is that I get why people are frustrated when they are trying to lose that last little bit. (unless you are underweight already. Then you need help.)

Now, do not get me wrong here. IT IS NOT THE SAME THING. I had someone say that to me once. Losing a huge amount of weight and a few pounds is not the same. It is very different. However, I get both sides now. I understand. I will however never ever ever go on and on about my last five pounds with a friend who is struggling to lose a large amount of weight. It just is not nice.

Any opinions?

A Good Laugh.

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

The Good: I went for a long run on Saturday. I did not want to, but I went anyway. I also made some good food choices.

The Bad: I did make some bad food choices as well. We were out at friends for most of the weekend. I had a some chips, a few cookies, and there was that piece of chocolate cheesecake. Considering what I could have eaten, I did not do that bad. I tried to keep it under control. For me that is huge. When food is in front of me, I eat it. Even if I am full, or do not really want it. I eat it. I hate that about myself, but I have to live with it and do the best I can. I know it will be a struggle for the rest of my life. I am willing to struggle with it though, and not let the addiction win. Does anyone feel the same way? Sometimes I just feel so crazy about my food issues.

The Ugly: All right. This is really ugly. Yes, I do live in Canada. It snows here. We have longer winters than most. Normally here in Alberta we get snow in November, and it stays until March. We will still get a few snowfalls after March, but it melts right away. I can deal with that. However, it started snowing here on Saturday and it has not stopped. It is not supposed to stop anytime soon either. This is completely insane. Global Warming?! Not so sure.

Last weekend it was 22 degrees Celsius, (around 71 F) so we put out some of the patio furniture. Today, this.

Weekend Troubles

I am having one of those crazy weekends where I want to eat everything in sight. I have a love hate relationship with weekends. Yea! No routine! Crap. No routine. See my problem?

I ate too much last night. It has to stop at that. I will not overeat all weekend.

I will let you know how it goes on Monday. Wish me luck.

Still Kicking

Posting every day is hard. I admire all you daily bloggers. My hat is off to you!

Things have been going well. I am still not counting points, and it seems to be working all right. I have gained a little because I ate too much last weekend, but I am back to my healthy ways.

My aerobics class yesterday was amazing. The regular gal who teaches our class was sick, so she got a sub for us. I am always nervous when I walk into a class and my instructor is not there. This new instructor usually does boot camp. When she said those two words fear spread throughout my body. Boot camp equals work out hell does it not? Oh well I thought, how bad could it be? It was bad, like I could barely pick myself up off the floor after the class bad. However, I did it! I lived to tell the tale. Today I have a hard time walking, but whatever, I survived!

It inspired me to shake things up in my work out routine. I was getting used to doing the same thing everyday, and it was getting dull. I am thinking about taking a kick boxing class. Anyone have any ideas for me?

So Far So Good

This not counting points thing is great so far. I know there will be times in my life when I will go back to counting. There will be days or weeks when I know I can not trust my instincts to eat. I am very thankful to have had the guideline that Weight Watchers provides to count my calories and eat responsibly. Right now I am in a healthy groove, where I know that after a workout I need a piece of fruit and some protein. I know that is what keeps my body happy and healthy. I am not obsessing about how I should use those precious last two points in my day. If I am hungry I eat.

Now, let's not be crazy here. I do not keep crappy foods in my house. My instincts would be craving Doritos and chocolate covered raisins if they were in my cupboard. I am however eating raw almonds. I always thought twice before eating them because they are high in points. I know they are so good for you, so I have been snacking on them. The scale has not changed much, but I have lost quite a bit of my muffin top. Not sure how that happened, but I will take it!

I love learning about what works for me. What foods fuel me, what foods make me feel like crap. I know that sugar turns me into a crazy woman who has no self control when it comes to food choices. Does that mean I will never have sugar again? Heck no. I just know that when I over do it, that I will be aware of my crazy mood swings later in the day.

The sun in shining, the birds are chirping outside this morning, it is a beautiful spring day. I think I will go break out the flip flops. Have a great weekend.

Baby Steps

I am sorry for not posting every day. I honestly think of it, but I feel like have had nothing interesting to share. I could tell you what I ate today, but that is very boring. I could tell you how far I ran. Not very interesting. I could tell you that it SNOWED again, but then I would sound like a whiner. So I will not tell you that it is April here, and SNOWING.

I have been trying something new. For the past almost three years I have been counting points. If I did not count points, I gained weight. My brain is now pretty wired to the fact that for me weight loss equals counting points. I am very sick of counting points. So I decided to be brave, step out on my own, and try to not count points. To just eat healthy, make wise choices, and see what happens. So far, so good. It has been baby steps for me, I have to stop myself from counting points in my head. If this does not work, I will go back to counting again. I would rather write down everything I eat for the rest of my life than gain back all the weight. I hope that I have come far enough on this journey to do this on my own. We shall see.