So Far So Good

This not counting points thing is great so far. I know there will be times in my life when I will go back to counting. There will be days or weeks when I know I can not trust my instincts to eat. I am very thankful to have had the guideline that Weight Watchers provides to count my calories and eat responsibly. Right now I am in a healthy groove, where I know that after a workout I need a piece of fruit and some protein. I know that is what keeps my body happy and healthy. I am not obsessing about how I should use those precious last two points in my day. If I am hungry I eat.

Now, let's not be crazy here. I do not keep crappy foods in my house. My instincts would be craving Doritos and chocolate covered raisins if they were in my cupboard. I am however eating raw almonds. I always thought twice before eating them because they are high in points. I know they are so good for you, so I have been snacking on them. The scale has not changed much, but I have lost quite a bit of my muffin top. Not sure how that happened, but I will take it!

I love learning about what works for me. What foods fuel me, what foods make me feel like crap. I know that sugar turns me into a crazy woman who has no self control when it comes to food choices. Does that mean I will never have sugar again? Heck no. I just know that when I over do it, that I will be aware of my crazy mood swings later in the day.

The sun in shining, the birds are chirping outside this morning, it is a beautiful spring day. I think I will go break out the flip flops. Have a great weekend.

Baby Steps

I am sorry for not posting every day. I honestly think of it, but I feel like have had nothing interesting to share. I could tell you what I ate today, but that is very boring. I could tell you how far I ran. Not very interesting. I could tell you that it SNOWED again, but then I would sound like a whiner. So I will not tell you that it is April here, and SNOWING.

I have been trying something new. For the past almost three years I have been counting points. If I did not count points, I gained weight. My brain is now pretty wired to the fact that for me weight loss equals counting points. I am very sick of counting points. So I decided to be brave, step out on my own, and try to not count points. To just eat healthy, make wise choices, and see what happens. So far, so good. It has been baby steps for me, I have to stop myself from counting points in my head. If this does not work, I will go back to counting again. I would rather write down everything I eat for the rest of my life than gain back all the weight. I hope that I have come far enough on this journey to do this on my own. We shall see.

Oops.

Do you ever have one of those days? Friday was a day where everything was off. All day I seemed to be running from behind, and not catching up. One of those days. So when my husband came home and wanted Chinese food, I agreed. Why not right? That was the beginning of the end for me. I had great food plans for the rest of the weekend, but things kept popping up, like friends inviting us out for dinner, friends inviting us over for pizza and so on. So in all honesty I am going to share what I ate this weekend. It is a little nuts, but I will have a point. I promise.

Friday- The most greasy Chinese I have ever had. (the rest of the day was normal)

Saturday- I spent trying to make up for greasy Chinese. Then friends invited us to the Outback. I ordered grilled chicken and veggies, but did eat some of the Bloomin' onion. *worth every bite*

Sunday- Something just turned off in my head yesterday. I did not care about what I ate. I had a doughnut, pizza, chips, cheesecake, chocolate, crackers, cheese, and a steak dinner. It is embarrassing just writing that down. I almost wanted to delete a few things so it did not look so bad. That is nuts. I felt so sick last night.

Today I look back and know that it was just one weekend. That bad day does not define me. The choices I make today and the rest of the week define me. It could get out of hand if I let it, but I will not allow it. I can't. If you look over right now to that picture of me, I am starting to feel comfortable in that new skin of mine. I am going to work my butt off to keep feeling comfortable in that new skin.

For those of you who still have a lot to lose don't give up because of one bad day, or weekend. Just pick yourself up, and start over. Don't wait until next week, or next month, or next year. Today. Start over right now. I know I am.

Another Week

This week my weight stayed the same. I am very thankful, because I did have a few leftover chocolates. My next challenge is spring break. The kids are going to be home all next week. My kids love to snack, and when they do, I tend to as well. Even if I am not hungry. Hopefully the sun will shine and we can get outside and play. After this crazy long winter, playing outside with the kids sounds like a perfect holiday.

Have a great weekend!

Easter Monday

Well, I made it through the weekend. We spent Good Friday with friends decorating eggs, playing games, and watching movies. Saturday was a birthday party, and Sunday at my parents house for Easter. It was a fun weekend, and guess what? I did not go crazy on the food. I did indulge more than I should have, but all thing considering I am pretty proud of myself. I never got out of control. I had a few chocolate eggs, and loved every second of it. You know when you decide to savour something instead of scarfing it down? It tastes way better, and no guilt. I should try that more often!

This picture defines my kids personalties to a tee.

Yea, chocolate! I did not go crazy on the chocolate this year, because sugar makes my kids nuts. They do not care how much chocolate they get, just the fact they get to hunt it down is the fun part. It was a great day.

Happy Wednesday

Sorry I have not posted much this week. I have thought about it, but I have not had anything that exciting to share. We are healthy, the sun is shining, spring is coming, life is good. Who could ask for more right?

I am dreading the weekend of chocolate bunnies that is coming quickly. I do not know what chocolate rabbits have to do with Jesus rising from the dead, but somehow it has happened. I bought the kids just a few chocolates so I would not be tempted to eat very many. Now they are at the age where they count and keep a close eye on their candy. That works for me!

I am thankful for Easter, I am thankful God sent his son to die for me. I have just this one life, and I am going to make the best of it. I lived in the shadows before, hiding behind my fat. Today I embrace life more, as corny as that sounds. I am not afraid so much to share my thoughts or feelings. I am who I am, and I am starting to really like this person coming out of my shell. Who knew that I was hiding in there all along?

Down Again

After the weekend of pizza I thought for sure I would have gained this week. I guess I did not mention that I had pizza for three meals last weekend. Three. Pizza is one of my major weaknesses. I love it so much. I made some good choices though. I ate thin crust instead of thick, and I tried to eat the pizza loaded with veggies instead of the meat lovers pizza. (however, I do love meat!) I guess I few small choices can make a difference. I lost 0.4 of a pound this week. Not much I know, but remember last week when I lost five? I thought the scale was wrong, like the next day when I got on those five pounds would be back. So, it stayed off, and now a little more came off with it. I will take it!

It is now Friday, and I have a busy weekend with friends ahead. Wish me luck!